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Friday, March 31, 2006

"Kim Almighty"

I feel like I’m in a really low-budget, but HIGH PRICED film about my life. Remember in “Bruce Almighty” when Jim Carrey is crying out to God to give him a sign, GIVE HIM A SIGN! God does…He does it subtle-ly and He does it NOT so subtle-ly and finally Bruce slams into something and is STOPPED in his tracks?

I not only remember it, I think I’m living it. Trust me, however, if God gave me His 3-O power (omnipotent, omnipresent, omniscient) it would probably take me much longer then 2 short hours to work it all out and use the power for GOOD.

I have been “on God” about so much lately…but particularly about this job and children and my destiny. God had originally asked for me to come spend some time with Him. I did…well I did most of the talking but we were TOGETHER.

Then God asked me to just hang out with him for a half an hour and be quiet and let Him do the talking…I tried…Honest I did, but it’s really hard to “clear the mechanism” and keep it clear for a WHOLE half hour!

Then God asked for just a few minutes…just like 10 or 15 minutes to whisper in my ear…and I busied myself right out of that time because something “better?” came along…I believe it is God that has sent this ‘pain of unknown origin’ to my arm. I am having trouble sleeping and working and DOING much of anything. I can’t do any of my crafts for more then a few minutes, I can hardly read because it’s hard to hold the pages open AND it’s my LEFT arm…guess what, I’m left handed! That means it’s even hard to type, write, bead, whatever it is I WANT to do.

God won’t FORCE me to spend time with Him and be quiet when I do…but He’s obviously got some pretty pressing things to tell me…so my goal…this weekend, is to spend some quiet (and I mean QUIET) time with God. A part of me feels very excited and full of anticipation of what God will say and the other part of me (apparently the stronger part) is like a child at naptime…I don’t want to lay still because I WILL fall asleep….so I wiggle, wiggle, wiggle until it’s over and I never did go to sleep.

I will let you know how it all pans out…I’m sure Satan is already plotting and planning some “busy-ness” to distract me or some vitally important things that MUST be done…possibly even for church…Satan is so sneaky about it, that I even sometimes believe I HAVE to get something done because it’s for church and obviously God wants me to do it! Believe it or not people, God can get his message through without the lights, camera or action…God can do it without one word being spoken! Sometimes more effectively.

Pray for me as I head into this weekend, that my body would follow my heart and offer God His time of silence so that I can hear his Word…

Can I Hear Him NOW?


Karen said...

I'm a lefty, too! I knew I sensed a mental superiority in you! :)

I hope you find your quiet time this weekend to be peaceful and focused.

Kristen said...

I hope your quiet time this weekend is blessed. I need some time to do that myself. It's hard to find the time to be quiet.

Enjoy your time alone with God! :-)

GiBee said...

oh, hun ... I know it can be really hard. Hang in there. The bumpy roads mean that God is doing something in your life, and Satan JUST.DOESN'T.WANT.IT.

Morning Glory said...

I hope you come back from your weekend rested and renewed. Blessings!

Lauren said...

I love that God cares enough about us to ask for our time and our hearts in His hands....even when we resist. Blessings on your time with Him!

Karen said...

Today is Sunday. I've been thinkin' of you this weekend and I'm looking forward to hearing from you again during the week.

tam said...

What ever happened with this? Did the pain go away? Was the weekend awesome? Did you ever hear HIM?

tam said... I know what the weekend was (I should have known better to comment before I moved rarely leave us hanging)

but your arm...did the pain leave?

(I'm ambidextrous does that get me into left-handed-dom?)