My point exactly!
So I’ve been out of the ‘valley’ for awhile now and I find myself beginning to wander over to the pit and peering in again, as though I haven’t seen that mud and muck before (up close and personal).
I found myself there yesterday and I wondered why I would go there. Why would I go to the place of torment and teeth gnashing? Am I nuts? Do I enjoy pain and suffering? Let me answer with a resounding NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So, then what am I doing here. I almost caught myself dipping my toes in there just to see if it felt okay.
I realized, as I reflect back on the “memory stones” of my life, that I am so much a creature of habit that it’s ‘pathetically predictable’. I hate that! I am like one of those wonderful graphs that have the hills and valleys all equally spaced with only slight variations in peaks and/or valleys. Predictably; the lower the valley, the higher the peak and vice versa.
So when and how did I make the turn back towards the pit on my climb to the mountaintop? In my life, when things are bad, I seek God with a vengeance! I pray constantly. I read the Word as often as I can. I study Scripture. I meditate on it. I may even fast, if that’s what God asks of me. In the midst of my torment I know I’m covered and I can feel that covering.
When I’m getting to the place of rest on the mountaintop, every once in awhile I find my time with God is compromised. It’s almost as if I’m saying: “Everything is FINE God; you can take a few days off!” So I take a few days off and SHAZAM! The ground beneath my feet begins to give way and down I slide, or I get distracted (when my eyes get off God) and next thing I know I’ve made a wrong turn and I’m going DOWNhill instead of Uphill. I’m standing at the pit trying to remember why I left this place.
I’m not saying there won’t be times of discomfort…after all God refines us with fire! Sometimes it hurts to be molded and formed into the vessel He has chosen, and that subtle pain is growing pain. What I AM saying is when I begin to SEE that the air feels thicker down here and my legs aren't straining anymore from the climbing…I may not be on the rise. I may, in fact, be on the downhill slide.
God shared this with me this morning (Yes, in the form of a "Knock Knock" joke) and I’m going to make every effort to continue my climb and continue to seek Him with passion! I pray that His wisdom would be planted so deeply in my heart that I will turn from this pit and run back to the place He is calling me to this morning.
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for God's approval. They will be satisfied. Matthew 5:6
"You are light for the world. A city cannot be hidden when it is located on a hill. No one lights a lamp and puts it under a basket. Instead, everyone who lights a lamp puts it on a lamp stand. Then its light shines on everyone in the house. In the same way let your light shine in front of people. Then they will see the good that you do and praise your Father in heaven. Matthew 5:14-16