Tuesday, January 09, 2007
"Wherever you are spiritually whatever you have been through emotionally, you are already wrapped in the Lord's embrace. Held close by nail-scarred hands."~ Liz Curtis Higgs~
I’ve always been a hands-on kind of person. I’m hands-on with work and learn things much more quickly by doing them, rather than hearing about them. I’m the child that took the clock apart to see how it works (never could get ALL the parts re-integrated). I’m also the person that looks at the picture of the completed project and dives right in. I do not bother to read the directions (or at least I didn’t before I aged and grew in wisdom). Those ‘extra’ parts really are quite important most of the time.
I’m hands-on with almost everything….everything that is except people.
Trust of people was not something that came easily in my home. It was however; lost almost immediately upon parental declaration. It was one of the goads that led to my independence at an early age. If I couldn’t rely on others, I knew I’d better learn to rely on myself! That sounds really good and ‘mature’, but what it really breeds is DIStrust for others…including the love spoken so freely from Jesus.
If the Lord can and does see and know every thing I do, say, or think, how could He possibly LOVE ME? It just didn’t make sense. These same offenses were what often led to loss of trust in my house.
The first time the Lord held me it felt uncomfortable and foreign. My heart wasn’t completely convinced I could trust this feeling of comfort, security all nestled in love. The first time the Lord held me I ran. I ran from His embrace as I did everyone else before Him. I was certain to make it on my own was far more important and valuable than to NEED the embrace of Jesus.
The day came when I realized I missed his embrace. I returned to the place He had always been…holding me tightly from the inside out. He never left me. He never let me go.
As I grow and continue on this journey, I openly and sometimes even pride fully share of the embrace of Jesus. The place where I am completely hands on!
Have an embraceable Tuesday!