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Tuesday, June 27, 2006

The Meaning of it All

For me, one of the greatest things about writing (blogging) is the verbal outlet it is for me. I only find my audible voice when I’m among close friends, groups of people I know fairly well, or ironically enough, large auditoriums of people. I realize, in my silent mode, I can come across as detached and disinterested, so I try to be a bit more mindful about my own nonverbal expressions.

I write all this on the heels of the luncheon this past weekend. So much has been running through my head; including my blog title. If you ask any of my close friends or family about me and my ability to speak my mind…it’s fair to say I can give an opinion on just about anything. I have gained enough wisdom over the years to USUALLY stop and THINK before offering my comments, unless of course it’s something I’m terribly passionate about or you catch me a couple days a month when the hormones are raging and my the rudder is flapping!

What I’ve found in this self-imposed silence is clarity in seeing the hearts God puts before me. I’ve also found the ability to sometimes hold my own thoughts and listen to others and even decide not to share what my mouth wanted to spill because my heart knows better.

I’m not trying to pretend to be something I’m not. I get ticked and my mouth flies off the handle regularly. Thankfully, more and more when I’m alone and while it may look hilarious to others when I’m driving during my verbal assault…no one is hurt in the viewing and I’m fairly certain sometimes it borders on amusing! I figure if I can have those concerto’s in “Maxx” I can also have a temper tantrum or all out verbal assault on whatever insects may have gotten trapped in the heated confines.

Today I once again come to the only throne with enough grace to handle all of us…and I ask God to show me each step on my path with a light so bright I’ll never take a misstep, but if I do…He will help me get back on track. You see of all the uncertainties I face everyday, one thing is for certain: GOD can hear me now!

From my FAVORITE Scripture; Psalm 139:1-6

“O LORD, you have examined my heart and know everything about me. You know when I sit down or stand up. You know my every thought when far away. You chart the path ahead of me and tell me where to stop and rest. Every moment you know where I am. You know what I am going to say even before I say it, LORD. You both precede and follow me. You place your hand of blessing on my head. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too great for me to know!”


Shalee said...

Beautiful kpjara, just beautiful.

Lately, I've been pondering how I can hear HIS voice. I am not still enough to listen for His voice and I want to learn how to do that in the hustle and bustle of everyday life. I don't want to be a child who does all the talking. I want to be the sheep who knows her Master's voice among the many.

"Grandi" said...

Amen sisters!! He did give us 1 mouth and 2 ears, but oh, what a workout I can give that 1 mouth and it is tough sometimes to just listen!!

GiBee said...

Sisters, I tell you ... long lost sisters. Ditto, ditto, ditto. Except for the luncheon. No ditto on that. But everything else? Ditto.

great2beme said...

I am always praying the part about going before me and after me but I usually pray it like this...Lord go before me and clear the way and then come behind me and clean up my mess. :) I know silly and I try to listen more and talk less but as you know big sister I am not that good at it just yet. Baby steps is all I can say.

Anonymous said...

Hey girl....I LOVE that verse in Psalms, it's one of my favorites too. And you are so right, it does take a lot to listen and hold our tongues, I should know. Just being aware is the first step, so I'd say we're well on our way to being great listeners.

Morning Glory said...

So much of what you said could be me. It took me so many years to realize that just because I had an opinion, it didn't mean I had to say it. I've worked really hard to stop and think first and I feel like I've made huge progress. I find myself often doing the observing that you mentioned.

Kristen said...

I'm almost the opposite of you. I don't speak my mind enough, and sometimes people like to walk all over me.

Good for you!

Heather Smith said...

Great post. I really need to learn this shutup before speaking thing. I think at times I've mastered it. Then my attitude rears its ugly head again!

Sally said...

I like this, and I like your thoughts on blogging- do you find it helps you to think stuff through?

Also I like the support I have from friends like you in blog land- where you allow me to speak and the respond having really heard what has been said.

Anonymous said...

I on the other hand should speak up more. Paul

kpjara said...

I am so thankful for this blogdom because it truly is an interactive journal and a voice with pauses.

I agree with Sally that it's nice to put stuff out there...with or without edits and just get some feedback; good and bad!

I thank God for this voice.

Chaos-Jamie said...

"and even decide not to share what my mouth wanted to spill because my heart knows better"

May God grant me this verbal maturity.

But (no buts, Jamie, shut up) But (shut up!) but that thing about appearing detached! (Get over your bad self, Jamie)