For me, one of the greatest things about writing (blogging) is the verbal outlet it is for me. I only find my audible voice when I’m among close friends, groups of people I know fairly well, or ironically enough, large auditoriums of people. I realize, in my silent mode, I can come across as detached and disinterested, so I try to be a bit more mindful about my own nonverbal expressions.
I write all this on the heels of the luncheon this past weekend. So much has been running through my head; including my blog title. If you ask any of my close friends or family about me and my ability to speak my mind…it’s fair to say I can give an opinion on just about anything. I have gained enough wisdom over the years to USUALLY stop and THINK before offering my comments, unless of course it’s something I’m terribly passionate about or you catch me a couple days a month when the hormones are raging and my the rudder is flapping!
What I’ve found in this self-imposed silence is clarity in seeing the hearts God puts before me. I’ve also found the ability to sometimes hold my own thoughts and listen to others and even decide not to share what my mouth wanted to spill because my heart knows better.
I’m not trying to pretend to be something I’m not. I get ticked and my mouth flies off the handle regularly. Thankfully, more and more when I’m alone and while it may look hilarious to others when I’m driving during my verbal assault…no one is hurt in the viewing and I’m fairly certain sometimes it borders on amusing! I figure if I can have those concerto’s in “Maxx” I can also have a temper tantrum or all out verbal assault on whatever insects may have gotten trapped in the heated confines.
Today I once again come to the only throne with enough grace to handle all of us…and I ask God to show me each step on my path with a light so bright I’ll never take a misstep, but if I do…He will help me get back on track. You see of all the uncertainties I face everyday, one thing is for certain: GOD can hear me now!
From my FAVORITE Scripture; Psalm 139:1-6
“O LORD, you have examined my heart and know everything about me. You know when I sit down or stand up. You know my every thought when far away. You chart the path ahead of me and tell me where to stop and rest. Every moment you know where I am. You know what I am going to say even before I say it, LORD. You both precede and follow me. You place your hand of blessing on my head. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too great for me to know!”