You know that moment of silence in a group…it’s a bit uncomfortable and everyone is waiting for SOMEONE to break the ice? I’m not fully convinced that silence is even comfortable with herself. It’s not the same alone. Sometimes I crave silence. Silence from TV, radio, people, the voice (sometimes voices) in my head, all of it. What I’ve found the past couple of days I am a bit hypersensitive to noise.
The past couple of days the building has been SCREAMING. It doesn’t just purr in activity, it screams in silence. It is making this horrible noise at JUST the right frequency to fill my ears and head. I asked other people if they heard it and so far…nada! I was beginning to feel embarrassed by this auditory ‘spirit’ until I realized it may just be God trying to reach me.
I’m sitting here typing. Let me describe the noises surrounding me. There is the computer hum, the heater vent (can you believe the heater kicks on every night even on days it’s going to be 92 degrees), the birds outside my window, my desk creaking, my own steady breathing, the building creaking and settling (at least that’s what they tell me). I hear an airplane outside. I hear traffic on the freeway outside this building. I hear wind outside. I’m beginning to think I hear the Taos Hum.
If you’re unfamiliar with it, Google it and you’ll find 44,500 hits for the Taos Hum. I’ve included a few links just for your amusement and wonderment.
There is this ‘phenomenon’ in New Mexico called the Taos Hum. I don’t know how old it is, but when I first moved to Albuquerque in 1995, it was one of the first legends I was told about. This low pitched “hum” that is audible to some and not to others. I don’t think I ever heard it…until now. There are even clubs for people who do in fact hear it. I don’t scoff at these folks because we all know our reality is just that…OUR reality. Who am I to tell a person what they do and don’t hear? It may be God trying to reach them.
Again I digress…there are all these noises around me and it invariably it makes me think of Jesus’ desire and NEED to go and pray by himself. I think of how valuable our own silence is in communing with Him. It is in the times I can become truly quiet externally and internally that I truly hear Him. Don’t get me wrong, He can shout above whatever noisy distraction I have going, but He prefers my seeking Him in silence. He likes my attention and I like the reward of His words and wisdom.
Take a few moments today and truly get quiet and see what you hear over the computer humming, the kids playing, the dishwasher running and even Taos humming. When I did this morning I not only heard the Lord speaking, but I felt more clarity and peace surrounding me.
What do you feel/hear in your silence?