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Tuesday, December 05, 2006

Foolish Fullness

"One response was given by the innkeeper when Mary and Joseph wanted to find a room where the Child could be born. The innkeeper was not hostile; he was not opposed to them, but his inn was crowded; his hands were full; his mind was preoccupied. This is the answer that millions are giving today. Like a Bethlehem innkeeper, they cannot find room for Christ. All the accommodations in their hearts are already taken up by other crowding interests. Their response is not atheism. It is not defiance. It is preoccupation and the feeling of being able to get on reasonably well without Christianity."
~ Billy Graham ~

“Jesus?” I called. “Where are you Jesus?” I was feeling really lonely and had some questions for my Lord and Savior.

I heard much of the regular beating of my heart, along with the buzz of the Christmas activity. I heard the anger of harried shoppers and the pain of many a customer. I heard the rush of my husband’s final school days and the cries of a sister torn in two. I heard my parents doting on this pained sister. I heard my brother applauding my own ‘seeming’ stability during this family upheaval.

I heard the radio blaring another Christmas tune and the lights blinking as I made my way home. I heard the television droning on with yet another commercial counting down the shopping days remaining. I heard the phone ringing and ringing as I chose to ignore it in my search for my Lord.

Somewhere in the distance I heard a familiar voice. I heard the comfort and the love that embodies grace and mercy in speech. I heard love louder and louder as I began my escape to its resonance.

I closed the doors to the center of my heart to stifle some of the noise as I ventured beyond the safety of the rhythm I had grown comfortable and accustomed to each day. I followed the twisting, turning, cavernous space listening for more of the comfort I heard only a decibel of earlier.

The closer I came to the doorway OUT, the stronger I heard the voice…louder and louder with each step.

“I am here. I am right here.” He called.

There at the doorway of escape from my heart was my Lord Jesus.

“Why are you all the way over here, Lord?” I asked with uncertainty.

“You put me here, my child. You chose the shopping, the lights, the music, your job, your decision making, even emotions to be the center of your life.” He answered honestly. How sad is the day when my heart is so overcrowded, Jesus must be forced to the stables…the outer court of my heart, and I don't even realize it.

“Please Lord, Please…come home! Forgive me and come back to the center of my heart, where only YOU belong. Help me see when the light begins to fade and the darkness prevails. Help keep me from getting lost in the deceiving lure of the world.” I pleaded with Him.

The Lord then took my hand and we walked together back to this place. I listened, as we walked, to what He had to say. I listened as He reminded me to renew myself daily with His word, His truth, His love. I listened and cleaned as we walked. The road somehow seemed longer on the way back to the center.

I discarded the music and television. I unplugged the phone. I prayed with Him at the places my family resides and held a little tighter to the hand leading me onward.

Eventually we made our way back to a newly refreshed and newly FILLED heart core. The Lord reminded me to seek Him daily, first thing…to look for Him there in the center and hold Him there in the center…each day.

I breathed a bit easier and more assured as I faced the day before me.
Today I pray that my foolish fullness would remind me daily how easy it is to push the Lord out to the ‘stables’, even when I think He’s in the center. I pray I would always hear His voice over the others. I pray I would seek and know Him more daily. I pray He would so pierce my heart and grow so large that the only way out is through my mouth and onto others.


MiPa said...

Wow! Thought provoking, much needed to hear post. Thank you.

Anonymous said...

It seems as though I am taking that same walk with you. When I finish this comment I am going out to my front porch(in case you were wondering...I live in florida ;) to spend some time in shopping, no checking things off my list, no music, nothing but me and the Lord. This is such a difficult time of year for me so my tendency has always been to immerse myself in the busyness of the season so I don't have to feel....but this's time for a new tradition.

Butterfly Kisses said...

Great post, as usual. This was such an awesome quote, wasn't it?

Anonymous said...

This is sooo beautiful. I love how you took this quote and displayed it in a "modern day" way.

I praise God he is always there waiting with open arms to comfort and refresh.

Thank you so much for writing.

the voice said...

That was so awesome! And isn't it the truth for so many of us; always with other things that we put first, all the while neglecting our Lord. Very profound and moving post today. May God bless you always, Ken

Anonymous said...

Just wanted to thank you for visiting my blog, and let you know that I've taken it offline. I've decided to take a break from blogging. Hope you have a wonderful and blessed Christmas season.
(formerly of Seek First His Kingdom)

Morning Glory said...

Soul-searching and thought-provoking. Beautifully written, Kim. Blessings to you today.

Winter said...

It is amazing how we clutter up our lives with noise and somehow miss that still small voice.

I love the peace, its why there are long moments of no noise except that of the sound of my children playing. It makes hearing God a lot easier.

Thank you for the post.

Anonymous said...

Oh Kim...

God wrote this one. He really did.

Thanks for being the messenger!

Fiddledeedee (It Coulda' Been Worse) said...

That was beautiful. It does become so difficult to hear from Jesus, when we fill our heads with so much noise. I needed to hear this one!

Thanks for stopping by "It Coulda Been Worse!" I know what you mean about family and friends reading "the blog." I think mine read only to make sure that they are not in it!!

The Imperfect Christian said...

Your posts are always so descriptive and well-written! What an amazing story! Thank you for sharing it with us!

Nancy said...

Amen, and so well put! This is an amazing story... thanks for sharing!

Dawn said...

You hit the nail on the head. I felt like that last Saturday. It reminds me of Larnelle Harris' song, I Miss My Time with You. Thank you. Beautifully done.

Nic said...

You are a true story teller - using your words to draw people in. I really enjoyed reading your thoughts on this week's quote!

Anonymous said...

Wow Kim, have you been snooping around in my heart and my mind? Lately my heart has been so wicked and so full of worldly things that I have wished I could tear it out of me and beat it with a stick! Thank you for this, it's like you've been looking into my very own heart. It is time for me to get back to my beloved Jesus...

Grafted Branch said...

That was a lovely post, Kim. Really lovely. I'm off to face my morning, but not before I prayerfully secure Him in the middle like you've exhorted. :)