I've had a hard time coming here lately...well not so much coming, but leaving anything when I do come. I'm going to try to be better about it.
The beauty of this blog has always been the ability to be the REAL me, yet still covered. I can peel back the layers at my own pace. I can continue to cover the scars with a band aid and not fear exposure here behind this screen.
I have found incredible encouragement at times. I have also found TONS of judgment and criticism. I almost have an easier time accepting the negative because that is how I'm programmed.
In God's perfect timing, I've just started a study with a friend; "Hiding From Love" by John Townsend. A really good book if you haven't read it. The first week of this study is about how sometimes when we choose to hide from evil, we also begin to hide from good out of inability to discern the two in our hearts.
I'm hopeful this study will help me allow God to heal past hurts and be able to accept encouragement as exactly what it is and not some hidden agenda that the enemy tries to convince me it is. I'm hopeful I'll find my way from behind the safety glass of this screen to develop real relationships with everyone God chooses. And that once and for all, I can just be me...good, bad and everything in between...by the grace of God.
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I've visited your blog for quite a while, and enjoy your fresh point of view.
That study sounds really interesting. I have had friends politely hint that I don't accept or acknowledge my need for love. (God withstanding) I take great effort to hide myself in Him. Can one hide themself from love with love? Hmmm...
I have also finally taken my friend's encouragement to heart and started blogging. The thing that I keep saying to myself is that I have to be real. That does not come easy for me. It is an issue of trust. Do you find the anonymity of the blog world takes away the power lack of trust can have?
Linda,
Welcome to the wonderful world of Blogging! For me the anonymity of the blog world does take away the possible trust issue. I do know for me, I have to ask God to guide my words because we do have the power of life and death on our tongues and at our keyboards.
I'm looking forward to reading your blog. I added you to my list.
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