So I've been 'off' work since February 12, 2012 and you'd think I'd use that time to write...and write...and write. Its my passion, I honestly believe it's one of the 'gifts' God gave me, and it's an incredible outlet and informal counseling session as I work through 'stuff'. So...why don't I do it?
Honestly, the only thing I can come up with is fear of failure. Fear that I'll realize I am NOT a good writer. Fear that God has already taken this gift away. I don't feel inspired like I used to...I don't feel the words pour from my soul. It's so frustrating and I don't know how to get it back.
I can honestly say I used to just sit and the Holy Spirit would overtake my fingers as words found their way here and formed sentences and inspired me.
My prayer today is that the words will come again. Whether I begin working somewhere or not...I want to write. I need to write. God please write through me.